love note

love note

  • Looking forward to the weekend, as always pretty much. Not much going on, so many people I’d like to visit but driving is just not something I can do right now if I can avoid it. Blah blah blah.
  • My friend is coming over with her son who is about 5 years old. This is something I’m looking forward to and a bit nervous about. I wouldn’t say I’m bad with kids, I just haven’t had much experience since my brother, who is now 28 years old.
  • Sounds lame but I want to organize, clean and get rid of more stuff, it feels good to do that. I hate those drawers that are just filled with useless shit. I have these old cell phones I don’t think anyone will ever want and cases for them, maybe I could at least put them in storage.
  • Excited to weigh myself tomorrow or Sunday, hoping I reached my 1st goal! I’m making myself wait, weekend mornings just seem to work better for weighing.
  • My android phone has a bug on it that’s driving me crazy and I don’t know what to do about it. When I type in the google search bar it duplicates every word I type. I thought getting rid of one of my apps would stop it but no such luck. I think I’ll keep removing the newest apps until it goes away.
  • Manly Man left me a love note in the driveway for when I came home from work. He used to do this a lot in our earlier years, it was nice to see it again.
  • Since we have really no money at the moment (stupid mortgage) we aren’t going to get out a lot unless we do something like a picnic or something outdoorsy, which is possible.
  • Lots of insane shit happening in my life, personal stuff, financial/house stuff, but nothing anyone would care about. I just hate how everything always seems to go wrong at the same time.
  • Trying to be optimistic in our situation is something I have to work at every single moment of every day because crying and having anxiety all the time wasn’t working.



DIY Wrap Bracelets

They were fairly easy and came out cute. I plan to make more. I also found that having a way to hang it from something while I was wrapping it helped a lot. Also using a spring clamp (or clothes pin) to keep the wrapping from loosening add you go along.




The directions can be found here.

Bloated & Broken

  • I’m bloated, which is really sucky when you’re trying to be healthy because it does NOT motivate you (or me at least). I’m still keeping track of what I eat though, every single day.
  • My laptop is very broken, our usual place can’t seem to fix it so it’s going to another place to be fixed. I really hope they can fix it otherwise we’re screwed.
  • I have a couple days off next week and am going to see another spine specialist about my back, really hoping I can get some long term relief.
  • In a state of being obsessed with Breaking Bad right now, listening to at least 3 different podcasts every week.
  • Can someone remind me to stretch every morning? I can’t seem to get my act together in the morning to do anything but shower, get dressed and brush my teeth.
  • I want to exercise more now that my leg feels better, I miss the gym but am worried the treadmill will mess my leg up again. For now I’m going for walks with Manly Man.
  • Found a cat claw on my desk at work, which I think solidifies the extent of my cat lady-ness.

claw shell

Review: The Spectacular Now

The Spectacular Now
The Spectacular Now by Tim Tharp
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I’m giving this 5 stars because I loved loved the book and even though I’m someone that enjoys an ending that isn’t nice and tidy (ie. The Sopranos) I still think there could have been a little more substance in the ending.

[I have a spoiler part in this section but you can read it if you want in my goodreads review]

I’m giving it 5 stars because I fell in love with the story and with Sutter himself, he was a fantastic character full of life and complexity. I think if I could have I would have given this a 4.5 but I couldn’t and I just couldn’t give this a 4, it was too good for that. While I loved Sutter I also thought Amy was a fantastic character and all the other characters too. This story was very rich and full of life, just the story I needed right now. I am actually looking forward to seeing how the movie comes out, the trailer shows a lot of potential. I’m glad they picked a guy who isn’t well known instead of some Teen Beat kind of guy.

I am sitting here missing Sutter though, there never seems to be enough of him.

Cheers Sutter!

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There Was A Shift

In the last couple of months something started changing for me, or in me maybe. It had nothing to do with the outside world though, I think something just shifted inside of me. I didn’t suddenly decide I wanted to be a size 2 or have a six pack. I didn’t look at someone else and think “I want that.” I didn’t decide to start some diet health program where I follow some diagram or system to help you lose weight. Those are all things I’d done many many many times in the past and they never really worked. This time, it was something entirely different, something I don’t think I could explain with charts and diagrams, it’s just a shift.

I’ve had weight problems my whole life, it’s part of my genes and I deal with a lot of medical things that make losing weight really hard such as my hypothyroidism. Others problems include my job, my commute, my back pain and my sicatica/LCS in my leg. However, I started back on My Fitness Pal again, which I’ve done before, but this time for some reason I really decided to put in every single meal, even the not so good ones, after every single meal. I know that if I forget to put in a day of meals I will end up not tracking anymore at all.


I started going to the gym regularly again and just trying to get more cardio but this last week I couldn’t do anything really because of my sciatica/LCS (I can barely walk at times much less run, there is some kind of nerve/muscle issue and I don’t want to make it worse). However it seems just being more aware of what I’m eating and deciding not to eat certain things based on what I’d eaten that day seems to have made a big difference.

August 6th

I admit I am eating more fruits and veggies than normally but not that much more than before. I’m drinking more water but not that much more water. I’m not really giving up any food, just being mindful. I don’t need to be some fit girl anymore that’s a size 2, I just want to feel healthy and good about myself. So far I’m definitely feeling better about myself and healthier, hopefully when I get this back/sciatica thing under control I’ll be able to take this up a notch but I think it’s good I don’t try to do too much too quickly.

Oh, did I mention, I’ve lost 16 lbs from my heaviest weight a few months ago? Yup.

My Breaking Bad Finale Theories


My theories on the end of Breaking Bad, not in order of plausibility.

  • Jesse or someone he cares about kills him face to face.
  • One of those people kills Walt and then takes his place as the new Heisenberg (ie. Jesse, Skyler or Walt Jr.)
  • He dies of cancer alone in a dingy hotel room and we see his last breath with a look of resignation that he brought himself to the place he is right now.

Those are the ones I think are most plausible.

ps. as of this moment I have not seen the new episode yet, so don’t spoil me.